Tuesday, December 13, 2022

No White Knuckles Here

 

Open-Handed Love

“…I love my children with an artist’s heart—a heart that’s open, that’s not afraid of its pain, that aspires to reach for joy—not with a clinched fist, not with white knuckles, but with an open hand.”

Colin Farrell (from Variety article, “We’re Going to Die and Make Serious Mistakes: Colin Farrell and Jamie Lee Curtis Confront Their Acting Legacies and Sobriety,” by Daniel D’Addario, December 10, 2022)

          My niece Katie sent me this article from Variety. It’s a conversation between Colin Farrell and Jamie Lee Curtis about many things, especially their humanity as opposed to their celebrity. Both Curtis and Farrell are in recovery from alcoholism and drug addiction and have taken a deep dive into their own psyches to stay in balance in recovery. I recommend the article not because they are famous, but because they say some wise and true things.

          What struck me from the quote above was the comparison Farrell made between open-hearted love and closed-fisted love. He defined his love for his children as “an artist’s heart” because as an actor he must reach down into his own emotional depths to play a demanding role. Even playing a role with heart can be a painful experience. Even watching another person play a role can be a painful experience—I regularly cry when watching tender scenes in movies. Don’t you?

          Open-hearted love is both beautiful and painful. It carries risk. The risk of not being loved in return or of losing the love of the cherished one. There’s a risk that you must sacrifice something of yourself to be in relationship with your beloved because love requires attention, time, and energy. My friends, Dejuana and Ladonna have a new puppy—a little Australian mini-blue shepherd. They’re head over heels in love with little Luna, and just the other day, Luna escaped from her enclosure and was nowhere to be found. Frantic searching ensued and sounding the alarm for others to search—only to find Luna asleep inside a stereo cabinet. Which of us hasn’t known that terrible fear and panic? Great love carries the risk of great loss—but without great love, life is not “worth a bent penny.” (Mary Oliver)

          Whoever or whatever you love, open your hands and love without fear. Close-fisted love is not worth having simply because it isn’t love at all. It’s possession. If you love, wear it like a flowing cloak—let the world see and let your heart see, too. There’s no greater joy, and, believe me, it is worth whatever risk comes with it.

                                                  In the Spirit, Jane

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