Sunday, October 25, 2020

Fallow Ground

 

Finding Inspiration

“What are YOU bringing to life today?”

Elizabeth Gilbert (Facebook Page)

          Such a good question. In these pandemic days—now nine months into self-containment—we mostly feel like dried up husks of human beings with not much of anything to bring to life. I can’t speak for you, of course, but I hit doldrums when nothing appeals to me and nothing inspires me. My usual response is to dilly-dally around, pick things up and put them down, and feel as though my head is full of sawdust. I sweep a floor and see how much dust is in the corners and along the baseboards, and then just walk away without doing anything to clean them up. It feels as though whatever enlivens me has moved to Texas, or maybe to the Samoan islands. Anyway, it’s far out of reach. I wonder whether you have periods like this too.

          These are uncomfortable times for me, but I’ve learned to live with them. It’s rather like being becalmed at sea—there’s plenty of time and sunshine around me, but I’m not going anywhere. It isn’t stagnation so much as brain-freeze. So, I wait. And while I wait, I do the other (more odious) chores that need to be done. Clean up the paper stacks, run the vacuum cleaner, pay bills, sort through things and organize, balance my checkbook (gag), and make soup—lamb and sweet potato this time. And while I’m keeping my hands busy, I notice what is bubbling away at the surface of awareness.

For instance, I’m thinking about my friends’ farm up the road in Springville. There is a flower and vegetable garden there that is waning toward winter. Lots of red-okra pods and zinnia and gaillardia flowers. Wonder whether they would produce natural dyes? I wouldn’t think about natural dyes except for the fact that my friend Anna brought a small cotton hanky to show me, made by her Mississippi artist-friend, Winki Allen. It is light blue, tie-dyed, with simple needle work along the edges. Allen uses only natural dyes she makes herself from her own garden. And just like that, I’m off on a new project.

That is how inspiration works—at least for me. It comes from anywhere. Several separate, unrelated sources somehow coalesce into one possible outcome. So, waiting through what seems like gridlock of the mind, turns out to be more like fallow ground. It’s rich and ready for whatever seeds of creativity you throw at it. So, I’ll ask you Elizabeth Gilbert’s good question, “What are you bringing to life today?”

                                        In the Spirit,

                                        Jane

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