Sunday, December 19, 2021

Yearning for the Light?

 

Be the Candle

“There are two ways of spreading light: to be the candle or the mirror that reflects it.”

Edith Wharton

          We’re approaching the Winter Solstice, the darkest day of the year in the Northern Hemisphere. We here in the Deep South have been experiencing longer hours of darkness since daylight savings time changed. This time of year, in Birmingham, sunlight begins to dwindle about four o’clock in the afternoon, and the sun doesn’t rise until almost seven. Of course, in the far northern parts of the world darkness is the norm in winter. In Barrow, Alaska, for instance, people may see as much as 67 days per year of total darkness. So, it’s not surprising that we humans are excited to pass the winter solstice demarcation point—when the light begins to return.

          I had a conversation with a friend yesterday who talked about feeling “blue” this time of year—couldn’t connect it with anything specific going on in his life, but he had felt it since childhood. He described it as feeling somehow disappointed or let down, even though there was no reason to be. That may be an issue of the lower levels of sunlight—seasonal affective disorder is a real thing. We humans think we are somehow not subject to the laws of nature, but we are. Most other animals spend the winter sleeping as much as 20 hours per day—they don’t fight the darkness; they simply align with the energies of the earth.

          Then there’s the fact that darkness is a natural part of the of the cycle of life—including our life, the life of our psyche. We are like flowers; we gravitate to sunlight and cling to it, and when our petals begin to fall around us, we panic—we throw a party, we run down to the brewery and drink ourselves into oblivion. Instead of waiting for the natural turning of the night into day, we numb our way out of feeling anything at all.

Acknowledging our own darkness is a frightening thing. We are afraid that it’s permanent, that we will always feel this way. It isn’t and we won’t. It’s part of a CYCLE, meaning a dynamic, ever changing, living movement. It turns and we turn with it. Christine Caine said it this way: “Sometimes when you are in a dark place, you think you’ve been buried, but actually you’ve been planted.” And Victor Hugo encouraged us with these words, “What makes night within us may leave stars.” Don’t be afraid. Just light a candle, slick your ears back like a cat, and approach slowly. “Into the darkness they go, the wise and the lovely.” (Edna St. Vincent Millay) May your solstice be enlightening.”

                                         In the Spirit,

                                        Jane

 

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