Monday, August 9, 2021

The Soul Work of Old Age

 

Play

“It’s the things we play with and the people who help us play that make a great difference in our lives.”

Fred Rogers

          Do you ever hit the doldrums? That stage when you can’t move forward and can’t go back? Back in the winter, I identified six pieces of wooden furniture I wanted to paint as soon as the weather warmed up. So, it’s now August, and I still haven’t painted any of them—because now it’s too hot. I think the problem may be that I am just too lazy. And I want to brush paint on canvas instead of furniture.

          One thing people don’t tell you about old age is that it is a return to childhood in more ways than simple-mindedness (not that I think children are simple-minded—most of the ones that I know are scarily smart). But the work of children is play, and in the retirement years, we return to that. Right now, there are dust-and-dog-hair bunnies the size of ostrich eggs running down my hallway, and the floors are woefully in need of mopping. And underneath the beds—well, never mind about that. What I do all day is paint canvases and sew. In other words, I play.

          Retirement years are so precious to me simply because I now have time to play. Some people spend them traveling, but I’m not inclined to do that. Some people read books all day. Some people play golf or hike the backwoods. I am a worker bee, not an exotic dragon fly. I love turning out a product. It’s like when bumble bees gather those huge pollen sacks on their legs and then fly back to the hive. What a great feeling—more honey for us! The other day, I almost stuck my nose on a bee inside a hollyhock bloom—it was so covered in pollen I didn’t recognize it until it backed out and flew away. I’d so much rather be smelling hollyhocks than mopping floors, wouldn’t you?

          Here’s what I believe about play at any age—it is essential because it makes the rest of life more bearable. When I am playing, I don’t think about the aches and pains of old age. I don’t worry about what sort of world future generations will inherit, or who will be the next president. I don’t wonder where the next war will be or whether our cities will be underwater from climate change. Play is absorbing. It requires focus and concentration. None of those things I mentioned will disappear, but for a little while, I won’t be concerned about them.

          I may never again have a spotless house. My furniture may never get painted. I sat down on the couch yesterday and my behind almost hit the floor—the springs are all worn out and in need of replacement. Yeah, that’s not going to happen. I’m too busy playing to go furniture shopping. And besides, that painting I’m doing of the stone bridge over the river—it still needs to be finished.

At this life stage, play is my soul work. What is yours? Are you able to give yourself over to play at least now and then? Will you go to your grave overworked and exhausted? Or will your loved ones say, “She/he taught us how to play. And that made all the difference.”

                                                  In the Spirit,

                                                  Jane

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