Thursday, January 21, 2021

It's not made of bricks and mortar.

 

Our Dream Home

“What is the connection between the home we knew and the home we dream? I believe what we long for most in the home we knew is the peace and charity that, if we were lucky, we first came to experience there, and I believe that it is the same peace and charity we dream of finding once again in the home that the tide of time draws us toward.”

Frederick Buechner (The Longing for Home, p.3; Harper Collins, 1996)

          Watching the inauguration of Joe Biden and Kamala Harris yesterday, I felt a peace settle around me that I have not felt in five years. Biden’s words of comfort and encouragement, of uniting and moving forward together seemed a soothing balm after so much divisiveness and chaos. Not because he can wave a magic wand and make a pandemic go away, but because he spoke like a good father who wants to comfort his family.

          We have had a four-year immersion in the “bad father” archetype—critical, dogmatic, demanding, punishing, terrifying. So, to have someone speak in a calming voice and reassure us that we are “good people” was a Band-aid on the wound of the American psyche. It is the equivalent of going home to all the good stuff we remember from childhood—the loving parents, the good and familiar food, the smells, and the sounds of voices we have heard since before we were born. Of course, many of us did not grow up in that sort of copacetic environment, but it is still our image of the ideal home—the one we wish we had grown up in. Good father, good mother, loving and supportive environment—that is what every child, young and old desires.

          When I was in Indiana to be with my friend who was dying, his gathered siblings and children made dinner the evening before his death. Part of that dinner was the barley “grits” and brown bread that were traditional from their childhood. The recipe and “just the right juju” are passed along from generation to generation. In their moment of loss, they returned to the comforting food of that time and place. That is home. The presence of their brother and sisters and children is home. The jovial conversation, routine banter and reminiscences carried forward from childhood—that is home. Whether or not one actually grew up in happy circumstances, there are still these markers of care and love that bind us together as a family, a clan. They are the signals that link us in time and over generations, that tell us, “This is where I belong. These are my people. This is home.”

          That is what I felt yesterday. We returned home to the people who have cared for us since we were a twinkle in our daddy’s eyes. There is hard work ahead. It will not be easy. We still have raw wounds and divisions, and we will have to keep wearing the masks and using the sanitary practices to protect us from this terrible virus. But there is a “good father” in the house, and now, a “good mother” too, and they will create a home for everyone who lives under their roof. That’s my dream. I look forward to living it.

                                                  In the Spirit,

                                                  Jane

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