Monday, January 7, 2019

Hit Delete


Cyber Spirituality

The computer was born to solve problems that did not exist before.”
Bill Gates

I just spent an hour transferring my computer files to an external hard-drive. I have had this laptop for seven or eight years, and I only now figured out how to pull up my documents on one side of the screen, and the external hard drive on the other, so that I can easily transfer documents. Yes, I know how totally dumb that sounds, but it's the truth. Now, instead of feeling extra stupid, I am proud of myself for figuring it out! The question is, will I remember how I did it the next time I need to move documents? Ah, well, cyber-life is an exercise in frustration for some of us “oldies.”

There is so much that is new and misunderstood about living our lives out in the open, in cyber-space for all to see. What do you dare put on line, on social media, on email knowing that any and all of it could become fodder for someone else's nefarious enterprises? Ignorance only exacerbates the problem. Since I grew up in the days of typewriters, I still have no idea what to do with all those F-keys at the top of the keyboard. I know I could sit down and go through a training video to inform myself, but the inertia around spending precious time doing such a boring thing is massive. As is reading those white-paper, three-hundred page brochures that come with the software to explain every detail of what is included. I actually know someone who reads those things—cover to cover. Yikes!

As a metaphor, however, cleaning out one's computer files is a great exercise. It reminds me of all the other “files” I've been dragging around for years—the old resentments, the lingering wounds, the crippling insecurities, and petty attitudes. I know there's no recycle bin for those, so I will just have to shred them and put them in the trash. All our little wounds, and sometimes even our big ones, are simply part of being human. They hurt for as long as we keep them alive by feeding them energy. There comes a time to simply shred them and put them out with the garbage. Sometimes a ritual is required for doing this—a letter written but never sent, an article of clothing torn to pieces, and a burial or burning of mementos—whatever it takes to mark the moment of letting go.

Like the emptying of the recycle bin on my laptop, I know those documents still exist somewhere in cyber space, just as each of us knows that we can't erase our personal history. But, for me they are gone. I have unloaded them, freed up space, and washed my hands of them. You can do that, too. It's a good feeling to let things go. It unburdens us of extraneous psychic junk—not to mention computer files.

                                                         In the Spirit,
                                                            Jane

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