Thursday, September 13, 2018

Just Walk Away


Myth of Perfection

Don't tear up the page and start over when you write a bad line...”
Garrison Keiller

Part of the myth of perfection is getting rid of anything that isn't perfect--like tearing up the page because you wrote a bad line. For so many years of my life, I tried to reinvent myself in the image of other women. As a teenager I ate nasty stuff like “Weight-On” and went the Dairy Queen for a banana split everyday trying to put some flesh on my bones. The boys called me Olive Oil, and teased me unmercifully. I can relate to kids today who are bullied and shamed on social media. I dyed my hair, painted my face, and tried to dress like everyone else. This search for perfection seeped into almost everything I did, even into adulthood—I never felt good about who I was, or how I looked, or what my abilities were. I saw only what I did not have, what I was not. I wonder whether you can relate to those feelings.

The notion that there is a “perfection barometer” that measures us is a widespread and felonious belief. No human being is perfect. Some people are more beautiful than others, some are more accomplished, some more intelligent, but even they have their weaknesses. And all the measurements change—when I was that skinny teen, voluptuous Marilyn Monroe was the standard of beauty. When I was a young adult, Twiggy stepped into that spotlight. Small mouth became puffy lips and short spiked hair changed to long straight. We can never get ahead of the constant change, so perfection is never achievable. What we can do, however, is figure out what makes us happy, and do that. Where are we comfortable in our own skin? That's where we need to be.

The myth of perfection contaminates our personal lives, our work lives, and every other facet of our existence. If we think we don't measure up, neither will anyone else. We will compare them to a mythological standard and find that they, too, come up short. Our work will never seem good enough. We will feel anxious and insecure. It's time to take a deep breath, and lay all that nonsense down. As Bishop John Shelby Spong would tell you, “Process down to the river and throw it in.” The only thing that is absolutely perfect is you, exactly as you are.

                                                         In the Spirit,
                                                             Jane

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