Tuesday, September 23, 2014

When the student is ready, the teacher will come.

Responding In Kind

I do not have to accept unacceptable behavior; I can begin by refusing to accept it in myself.”
Courage to Change

I had an experience recently with a woman who designs “healing gardens.” I am part of a committee interested in creating one with our remaining outdoor space at the church. This woman was suggested by someone who heard her speak at a conference and thought she was very good. So we called her and began a conversation—which went well until she explained what she charges per day. Her fee was so exorbitant, I almost jumped through the phone! Thousands of dollars per day! Plus expenses! I was instantly offended and everything in me wanted to deliver a sermon on people who say they're in the 'healing business,' who are really interested in extortion. It was ugly.

I didn't give her a piece of my mind, but the whole experience put me in a terrible mood. I became irritable with the other members of the committee, especially the ones who wanted to continue talking with her. My criticism jumped from her to them, some of whom are very good friends. Somewhere in the middle of that, I realized that my own reaction was just as offensive as her rates. I was in full blown judging mode—I had no knowledge of this person, and why she would ask such unreasonable fees, and I hadn't taken the time to find out.

The 12-Step folks have a saying that applies; “Let it begin with me.” It means that I can become the person I want to see, the person who behaves with civility and common sense. I don't have to react to every provocative incident with equal provocation. I can refuse to accept unacceptable behavior without becoming aggressive and nasty. It is a lesson I need to learn, and when there is a necessary lesson, there will always be a teacher.

                                                            In the Spirit,

                                                                 Jane

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