Monday, September 22, 2014

Broken Places

Coming Back Strong

The world breaks everyone and afterward, many are strong at the broken places...” Earnest Hemingway

Many years ago, I had surgery on my neck. I had herniated the vertebral disc between C-6 & 7, and the disc had broken in two, with part of it in the neural tube, and part in the nerve bundle coming out of the spine. To say the rupture was painful, is to understate by a factor of 1,000. Anyone who's herniated a disc can testify to that. I had been in pain for years because the disc bulged and impinged nerves. I spent many a sleepless night trying to find a comfortable position--on the floor, on the bed, on any horizontal surface large enough to hold me. When the disc finally blew, and I lost feeling down my left arm, I knew it was time for something drastic. After the surgery, and ever since, I have had no pain at all. My left arm is only slightly weaker than the right, just as a reminder of that phase of my life.

The Ken Burns PBS documentary about the Roosevelts gave a clear picture of what each of them overcame in order to lead this country. They weren't perfect people, and their wealth certainly helped, but money does not keep the heart from breaking, nor does it shelter one from great pain. It was not only the story of the Roosevelt family, but the agony this country endured during the great depression. My own family, like the majority of Americans, lost everything. People were broken, lives in disarray. And yet, we came back stronger than ever before.

At some point in every human life, there will be pain and loss that seem insurmountable. That experience can destroy us, or it can make us stronger in all the broken places. Sometimes, what remains is simply the memory of the pain, and the valuable lessons learned from it.

                                                             In the Spirit,
                                                                 Jane



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