Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Angels Unaware


Teachers and Students

In time, and always just at the right moment, a teacher or maggid arrives. He may manifest in many ways, as old Kabbalistic documents indicate. One may not see him more than once, or realize one has known him all his life. It can be one's grandfather or a fellow student, the man crossing the sea with you on a boat, or someone you thought a fool. He may arrive at your front door or already be in the house.”
                                Z'evben Shimon Halevi (The Way of Kabbalah)

I was at the Bama Flea and Antique Mall Monday futzing around in my booth when a man I'd never seen before came by and pawed through the container of stuff I'd put aside to take to the thrift store. I told him I'd give him a good deal on anything in there since I was getting rid of it anyway. He pulled out a wooden toy wagon and we haggled a bit over price. I, of course, thinking 'why haggle over two bucks, buddy'. Then he launched into a monologue about life. He told me all about his business and how difficult it had been to make it through the economic downturn, about his wife and her retirement from a major publishing company, about her loss of pension, and her compensatory small booth at an antique mall in Pelham. He told me of his children and what they were doing in their lives, and about folks he knew who live in my neighborhood.

He told me the story of his good friend who was driving in a car with his best friend and his wife. While they were in the midst of a conversation, the man died—sitting right there behind the wheel with no warning whatsoever. It was, to say the least, a wake up call for the man who told me the story. He said, “I knew right then that at 71 years old, I couldn't take anything for granted again. I'd better make peace with the way things are, with myself and my God. So I have. I don't worry any more. I just give thanks for this minute.”

He took the wooden toy, saying he was in the Alabama Woodworkers Guild and that they make toys for kids at Children's Hospital. He would take the toy wagon apart and use it to make a new toy for a sick child. He gave me a beatific smile and departed.

You never know when you'll meet a teacher. I guess the Bama Flea is as good a place as any. They have a way of catching you when your guard is down, when you're unprepared to question. They almost never have on clerical robes, but are most often dressed in semi-tattered street clothes. They seem to have checked their ego at the door or long since shed it. They look into your eyes, speak directly to your soul and hand you a little gem that you didn't realize you were searching for. One that you'll remember for the rest of your life.

I've learned that it's best to simply listen—and give thanks for this minute.

                                                In the spirit,
                                                Jane



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