Friday, September 23, 2022

Making Space for What Matters

 

Clearing Out the Closets

“Little changes and little choices add up to be revolutionary changes in your life.”

Sarah Ban Breathnach

          Several of my friends are in the throes of “cleaning out.” The dreaded moment when you look around you and everything in you says, “I can’t look at this mess anymore! It’s got to go!” I’ll bet you know exactly how that feels. But right on the heels of that thought is the feeling of being overwhelmed by the shere enormity of the task. The thing I have found most helpful to getting the job done is to compartmentalize—set a schedule, not one that’s going to grind you to a peg, but one that’s doable—and then do one thing at a time.

          Recently several people gave me clothes—I suppose because they were cleaning out their closets—and to make room for them, I had to clean out my own closets. I asked myself with each item, “do I love this?” followed by, “does it still fit?” and “when is the last time I wore it?” With retirement, my wardrobe changed, and then with pandemic, it changed again. I don’t need blazers or evening jackets when I spend ninety percent of my time in jeans and t-shirts. I hauled three big shopping bags full of clothes to the closest thrift store.

I recall going to an estate sale once in a large house in the “tiny kingdom.” Upstairs, off the master bedroom suite, a closet, about eight or nine feet deep, ran the entire length of the back of the house. Everything was built in. Stacks of drawers next to hanging space next to shelves for shoes and purses. There were windows with misty curtains allowing in natural light. I must have spent ten minutes in that closet, fascinated not with the items in it but with the orderliness of it. Nothing out of place, not one item on the floor, or cluttering the shelves. It was amazingly clean. I don’t aspire to that, but I certainly do I admire it.

          Lately, I’ve been conversing with friends about this last quarter of life. A slew of questions surfaced about it since my birthday earlier this month. How do I want to spend these years? Is it important just to see things—places other than home—and go immerse oneself in other cultures? Is it enough to read all the books on the must-read list? If one has not already created a legacy for posterity, is it too late? What would that legacy be? What do I want to invest my energy in now? What do I want to be remembered for? Is it important to be remembered at all? So many questions.

I hear my cousin’s voice saying, “You think too much.” But together with cleaning out stuff in your environment, it seems important to also clear out the mental debris. Decide what’s important in your life, and how you can clear a space around it to assure time and energy to engage. We spend so much time—at least I do—doing insignificant and mind-dulling things. When we think we have all the time in the world, that’s fine. But when time is short and energy is somewhat limited, maybe it's time to sit with oneself and ask these big questions.

Sarah Ban Breathnach suggests this: “When you first awaken or before drifting off to sleep, quiet your mind, lift-up your heart, muse, mull over, make discoveries. Consider, conceive, create, connect, concede that it all starts within.” While you’re clearing out your closets, take the opportunity to also poke about inside your heart and soul. Who knows what joyous discoveries lurk there.

                              In the Spirit,

                              Jane

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