Thursday, July 2, 2020

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Expressing Anger
“Expressing anger is not always the best way to deal with it. In expressing anger we might be practicing or rehearsing it, and making it stronger in the depth of our consciousness. Expressing anger to the person we are angry at can cause a lot of damage.”
Thich Nhat Hanh (Peace Is Every Step, p.59)
          I peruse Facebook once a day, and sometimes I’m delighted with the videos, personal photos and messages, but sometimes, I’m shocked with the rawness of the anger expressed there. Sometimes folks are so mad they can hardly make their words hang together coherently. There is a lot of free-floating anxiety and fear around the pandemic and its effect on the economy. Our politics and social outrage are spilling into the ethos and polluting everything they touch. Some of us are just lashing out at whatever moves because it feels good and we need to displace some heat. But, as Thich Nhat Hanh says, “expressing anger is not always the best way to deal with it.”
          I used to tell my counseling clients to take a tennis racket and beat a pillow until their arms were tired. That at least gets rid of the physical desire to punch somebody. Unfortunately, it doesn’t do much about the anger beyond the moment. The next time the situation or the person arises, the anger will be right back. Beating a pillow is a good work out; it tones arms and shoulders but not much else. To actually deal with our anger, we have to spend some time locating its roots, and pulling them up one at a time.
          The bad news is that the people who make us angriest are those who hold an element of us within them. Sorry. But it’s true. For instance, there’s a woman I know who is a true “Southern belle.” She is sooooo sweet, and ingratiating, and accommodating, and manipulative. I just can’t abide being in the same room with her. I assume, therefore, that she is holding up a mirror for me so that I can see those qualities in myself. Makes me want to grit my teeth and curse, but I know it’s true.
          The only way to truly get rid of anger is to delve into it. What is its true source? Like a mountain stream, anger starts out as a little trickle and gathers speed as it rolls downhill. By the time it gets to the point of gushing out, it has gathered all sorts of debris—limbs and rocks and junk that has been thrown in there instead of being dealt with appropriately. We might still be angry from something that happened decades ago; we may have thought that old anger resolved, but in a moment of pique, there it is—full blown and madder than hell. Sometimes we transplant anger from one situation to another. Usually we like to plant it in softer, easier to manage soil—let’s say, from a parent who disappointed us, to a child who cannot fight back. That’s probably the most destructive use of anger.
          Anger, even when it’s righteous and well-founded, can be destructive to everyone it touches. Understandable as it may be, and well-deserved, it can go from a spark to a wildfire very quickly. It would be good for us to check in with ourselves when we feel anger building inside and ask ourselves, “What is this all about?” It’s easiest to blame someone else, but also non-productive. The anger belongs to the one who feels it, so that’s where we should look. What are its roots? Who’s tending them?

                                                  In the Spirit,
                                                  Jane


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