Friday, July 12, 2019

The Gift of Attention


Praying

It doesn't have to be
the blue iris, it could be
weeds in a vacant lot, or a few
small stones; just
pay attention, then patch

a few words together and don't try
to make them elaborate, this isn't
a contest but the doorway

into thanks, and a silence in which
another voice may speak.”
Mary Oliver (“Praying” Thirst, p.37)

How often do you give something your undivided attention? Something besides your cell phone, that is. Most of us attend to several things at once—we're cooking, or working, or driving, while the radio, or a podcast, or a book on CD is playing at the same time. I'm as guilty as anyone else. Some of us keep the TV on whether we're actually watching it or not. It's background sound to fill the silence that for some reason is unnerving to us. For whatever reason, we rarely focus intensely or listen without distraction.

One of the reasons I write this blog is to break that pattern—at least for an hour or so each day. I sit and focus and write. For that hour I am not juggling thoughts or making plans or replaying yesterday's conversations. It gives my mind a rest. Prayer is like that, too. It does not need to be composed of words, does not have to start out, “Dear God,” and then list your requests or ask for blessing this or that person. It can simply be giving your full attention in that moment to one thing.

My friend, Garvice, gave me a new book of Mary Oliver's poetry, for which I am deeply grateful. Mary Oliver demonstrated over and over again how paying close attention is a form of prayer. She mentions, in the poem above, the blue iris, or a few stones, but it could just as easily be the soft call of mourning dove, or the purple-throat of morning glory, or the way the red wasp hangs in mid-air to find its way into a groove in the eaves where its nest is built. Remember when you were a child, free as a bird this time of year, and you spent precious idle time watching ants rescue their babies, and reconstruct their mound after you had knocked the top off? Or, spent hours flipping over rocks in the creek to see what lived underneath? That kind of attention is prayer. It takes into account that other beings, however tiny, share this sacred earth with us.

In her book, Thirst, Mary Oliver poetically recorded her experience when deer came to a creek to drink and found her sitting there, quiet and still. Instead of bolting away as deer usually do, they walked up to her and one nuzzled her hand. For twenty years she went every day to the same woods, but that moment of grace was never repeated. She wrote, because of that encounter, “...I live in the house near the corner, which I have named Gratitude.” (“The Place I Want to Get Back To” Thirst, p.35-36)

Take a moment today to stop and focus, to become still and silent. Perhaps the small, quiet voice of the Divine will whisper a blessing in your ear. Maybe, if you're lucky, it will be in the trill of a nesting wren, or simply, pure grace floating by on the breeze.

                                                          In the Spirit,
                                                             Jane

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