Friday, December 30, 2022

Looking Ahead

 

Next Year

“Stripped of causes and plans

and things to strive for,

I have discovered everything

I would need or ask for

is right here—

in flawed abundance.”

Mark Nepo (from “The Way Under the Way”)

          Entering a new year is always filled with determined plans. January almost qualifies as a season in the calendar—January: Clean out the closets, haul stuff to Goodwill, remove everything out-of-date from the pantry, and please, while you’re in there repaint the shelves that are still orange from the last owners terrible color palette. I’ll bet you recognize that season. In the cold, grey of January, when going outside is hardly an option, we take on projects we’ve been putting off since—well, since last January.

          This time I’m approaching the coming year with an open mind, no expectations, no resolutions. Just a mix of trepidation and anticipation. It’s almost as taboo as mentioning the name of Voldemort to bring up 20…you know, the next year after this one.

          The pandemic has taught us lessons that we didn’t really want to learn, and one of them is: Don’t make plans. We are not in control of our lives (we never were, to be honest) and we cannot twist fate in our direction. All we seem able to do is take care of ourselves, mask up when the counts are rising, carry on as though things were normal, and keep plenty of Tylenol, cough syrup, and decongestants in the medicine cabinet. Drink vitamin C like it’s your lifeline to the future, get a bit of exercise every day (outdoors if possible), and don’t pack yourself into small spaces with a crowd of people you don’t know. It’s a low bar.

          Oh, and don’t lose hope—it’s what has gotten us this far, and it will carry us on. I have learned that the inside of my house is pretty darn great and inviting friends in small numbers to my dinner table suffices as a social life. I won’t tempt fate—not yet. But neither will I lose faith. In the big scheme of things, this is a blip, and we happen to be the ones alive to chronicle it. It’s not the plague, it’s not Ebola, it’s not polio—it’s just a pain in the butt with a long recovery. When we cross the threshold into next year, we will still be who we are—the fortunate folks who have survived the pandemic of the 2020’s—it’s one for the history books, and we were there.

          So, for the end of this year, and for the beginning of next, put on a hopeful face and lean in. We’re stronger than we think. And, we have everything we need in flawed abundance.

                                                  In the Spirit,

                                                  Jane

 

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