Thursday, February 3, 2022

The Astonishing Light of Your Own Being

 

Light Bringers

“I wish I could show you when you are lonely or in darkness the astonishing light of your own being.”

Hafiz

          I’ve been watching the Netflix series, Girls Guide to Divorce, about five Los Angeles women—affluent, privileged—who are moving into midlife with teenaged kids and ex-spouses who come and go and generally wreak havoc. These women are self-sufficient, wealthy, and yet constantly searching for the perfect man and soul mate. They make every possible mistake in the love department, and show gaping holes in emotional development, even though they are successful businesswomen. To me, the interesting part about the show is the kids—their preteen and teenaged children. They are the wisdom keepers—they are doing their best to reign in their parents’ deviant behaviors and keep them on their feet long enough to take care of business. There are stunning role reversals. I guess that is interesting simply because it’s familiar—though not for the same reasons.

          Growing up in a dysfunctional household—which most of us do—causes children to mature faster than they should. I don’t know whether that is a bad thing, but it makes childhood less carefree. Sometimes, when things go off the rails at home because Mom and Dad are fighting like mad dogs, children feel responsible—as if they either caused it or should have the ability to fix it. Neither is true, of course, but sometimes parents don’t take the time to explain that. Can you imagine one of your parents saying to you the words of Hafiz above? “I wish I could show you the astonishing light of your own being.” Or, building up your ego strength so you could understand that whatever happens between Mom and Dad is not because of you. The 12-Step folks say, “You aren’t the cause, and you aren’t the cure.”

          This is not a condemnation of modern parenting. I think it’s more a morality play to show the audience the repercussions of unconscious behavior on the part of parents, and how the consequences ripple out to everyone who comes in contact with them. Parents are human beings who have their fair share of flaws, as well as their own brand of wisdom—they aren’t monsters intent on destroying your life. It took me a very long time to understand that my mother and daddy were just ordinary people with thoughts and problems of their own.

          I send you the message of Hafiz this morning: Your own light is astonishing. Let is shine upon you, and within you, and around you so that the world can see you for who you truly are—a Being of light.

                                                  In the Spirit,

                                                  Jane

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