Hot-Headed
Virgo
“That
black, maddening firmament: that vast cosmic ocean, endlessly deep in every
direction, both heaven and pandemonium at once; mystical Zodiac, speckled flesh
of Tiamat; all that is chaos, infinite and eternal. And yet, it’s somehow the
bringing to order of this [inner] chaos which perhaps has always disturbed me most.”
Mark
X (Citations: A Brief Anthology)
I hate
to say it, but I have been thinking a lot about Zodiac signs lately. I just
heard half of you slamming your laptop shut, and I don’t blame you. I have
poo-pooed the whole thing for my entire life. But here’s the deal—no matter
where I look, no matter the reference book, the description of Virgo hits me
right between the eyes. As you know, I’ve been wrestling with my angels/demons
lately about my temper and my attitude—this skirmish is because of inflammation
in my joints and because people that I respect (Caroline Myss, Moshe Feldenkrais,
John Upledger) say this inflammation is the result being determined to exert
order and control. The sign of Virgo is all about order, efficiency, analysis, control of
the environment, getting the facts right, etc. Humans who are born under this
sign are simply stress magnets because they are so exacting about everything. So,
I’m now looking for ways to manage my stress and to tone down my
hot-headedness.
I
wonder about you—do you look for solutions to the problems your personality creates
for you. Before you say, “my personality doesn’t create problems for me,” take
a breath. We are all a mixed bag. Even sweet people have a dark side; in fact,
the seemingly sweetest, most accommodating people cast a dark shadow—trust me
on this. As I’ve written before, the kindly co-dependent who sacrifices everything
for the care of another or in service to a cause, has an underbelly devoted to
control. The super-star who basks in the limelight, desperately needs to be
adored, and harbors the weakest of egos. The humblest of folks, the most
self-effacing and egoless, can be the harshest of critics, especially of those
guys who are basking in the limelight. Whether we like it or not, we all have a
persona and a shadow; the one we identify with, and the one we try to hide.
I think
I’m going to try meditation and yoga. I’ll get on my knees (except for the sore
one) and pray that I can keep my mouth shut. (Oh, yeah, that’s going to happen,
right!) I hope your personality is less difficult than mine. God bless you if
it isn’t.
In
the Spirit,
Jane
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