Monday, February 15, 2021

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Be Odd

“What makes you different or weird, that’s your strength.”

Meryl Streep

          Do you ever feel like you’re living in a dreamscape? Like everyone else knows what’s going on except you? I do all the time. For instance, I watched the Super Bowl with some friends recently, truly just to see the commercials, but when they came on, I had no idea what they meant. I felt like I had entered the Twilight Zone or been blown through a wormhole in outer space. Then I remembered my great-grandmother Richardson sitting in our living room in Chattanooga in 1952, watching our first television—a big wooden box with a small, grey, octagonal screen. She was an old, farm woman in a calico dress, and a pair of laced-up, black shoes old women wore back then. Her grey hair pulled back in a tight bun, she resembled Granny on Beverly Hillbillies, except she was hefty. She scrutinized the TV as though an alien lifeform crouched across the room from her, and after a commercial for some cleaning product, she turned to my mother and said, “That’s a big ol’ lie.”

          Feeling odd, weird, and out of step is to be expected when you get older. In your lifetime, everything has changed multiple times, and nowadays, technology has accelerated the speed of that change. It is tempting to say, “That’s a big ol’ lie,” to lots of things. Technology has been wonderful in some ways, and terrible in others. Obviously, we’re not going back, and mostly no one wants to, but there’s also no denying that technology has affected our human relationships, our ability to communicate through language, the quality of our speech, and our relationship with the natural world. And those changes are not for the better.

          Being odd is something that, at times, I cherish. I confess to not wanting to spend the amount of time on a computer that it would take to become proficient. There is something about video conferencing—like Zoom—that exhausts me. Over the weekend, there was a Jungian seminar that I was interested in, but it would have meant six hours on Zoom, and I just couldn’t do it. When I talked to a friend who attended, she praised the speaker, but not the medium. The video and audio of the attendees was blocked to avoid distracting from the presenter. But what it also blocked out was the relational aspects of the gathering. People couldn’t see each other, couldn’t read the body language or feel the presence of others. In many ways, even though it was a seminar titled “Longing and Belonging,” the humanity had been stripped out of it. That’s ironic, don’t you think?

          I had an email from my cousin Sandy this morning saying she had read my post on being a nature-bonded child, and about how we grew up playing in the woods. She wrote, “I’m so glad we grew up when we did.” That lifestyle is no longer mainstream. Kids who are growing up the way we did, outside and in the woods, are probably considered strange by their peers. My message to them is a quote from Catherynne M. Valente, who wrote In the Cities of Coin and Spice, “All things are strange which are worth knowing.” Hang in there, odd ones. Embrace your weirdness. It’s where you’ll find your strength.

                                                  In the Spirit,

                                                  Jane

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