Tuesday, January 19, 2021

Thoughts about aging...

 

Welcome to the Good Life

“Growing old is one of the ways the soul nudges itself into attention to the spiritual aspects of life. The body changes teach us about fate, time, nature, mortality, and character. Aging forces us to decide what is important in life.”

Thomas Moore (Care of the Soul)

          The past few years, I have dealt almost daily with pain in some part of my body. Now, it happens to be hands and knees, but it has moved around so as not to leave out any joints or muscles. The effect of it is to put me through the stages of grief. I’ve been angry, sad; I’ve bargained with God, and denied there was a problem, and I’ve longed for my youth—grieved its passing. Always an active person, now I must choose different ways of being active—slower, less aggressive ways. My friend, Ladonna, just had open heart surgery to repair five of her coronary vessels. Two days before being hospitalized, she was clearing trees and brush off her land, working like a mule to get a lake house ready to rent. Now, she is recovering at home, with books and music and home health care. She’s lucky to be alive, and she knows it. Life changes with age. It teaches you flexibility.

          Sometimes the changes are good. As Moore says, the soul nudges itself toward attention to the spiritual aspects of life. A painful body, a damaged heart, will make you slow down and take stock. Some of us are used to living in bodies that always cooperated with our plans, and when they suddenly don’t, we are shocked. It’s the body’s way of saying to us, “Hey, give me a break. I’ve served your wishes all these years and now I need to rest a little bit.” If a friend said this to you, you would insist on their taking it easy, and probably cook a few meals for them. So, why not you? Why not your body?

          The soul needs time and focus to prepare for life’s winding down. The developmental skills are different—less ego driven. The desire to give back what has been given to you becomes stronger. The drive to share what you know from the school of life seeks out opportunities. Attention is required for the inner life, which means that the outer life must take a backseat. It’s not sad. It’s just different. You can compare it to the leap from the unself-conscious innocence of childhood, where the focus is on play, discovery, and raw adventure, to the changes that come with adolescence, when we suddenly become self-involved and mortified by our looks, desires and drives. We humans change with age. It’s coded in the DNA. It’s okay.

          Aging with grace is not easy. We want to cling to our young bodies and watch them change with sadness. It would be a lie to say otherwise. But eventually, we reconcile, we reach that last stage of grief, which is acceptance. As our bodies are less agile and comfortable, our souls become our greatest source of joy. We can be content with sitting in the sun instead of working in it. We can focus on reading a book instead of writing one. We can drink in the beauty of other, younger bodies and hope that they are delighting in themselves as much as we did. Life is good at all its stages if you allow it to be.

                                                  In the Spirit,

                                                  Jane

1 comment:

Jan said...

Beautifully written... so true.