Friday, April 5, 2019

Open Door Policy


Hospitality

People will forget what you said, forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”
Maya Angelou

I don't know about you, but I'm a creature of habit. I have routines. I stay the course. When things come along that throw off my usual round, I chafe a bit. My automatic first response is to say “I don't want to do that.” This is a challenge I will face for the rest of my days—how to be open and welcoming to unexpected events and people. I like to blame it on being an introvert—and that does contribute “bigly” as the president would say, but it's truly a resistance to surprises. I like to be in control. So these days, I'm trying to out-grow my reluctance to engage the world spontaneously.

One of the things we do, or at least I do, when I am resisting spontaneity, is to disappear in one way or another. We tune out, we make up reasons to withdraw, and we do not enthusiastically engage. In other words, we go through the motions without committing ourselves fully to the process. When it is people we are resisting, even if we put on our smiley face, they feel the lack of genuine interest. The encounter feels lifeless, flat. It's kind of like having an exchange with the cashier at the grocery store—they have been taught to say the right words, so they say them, but there's no warmth. People feel that instantly, and it's not a good feeling.

When we have a built-in resistance to hospitality, which most introverts do, we can either shut ourselves in and refuse to encounter the world, or we can work with ourselves to change the trait. There's a reason it's there—most likely a holdover from childhood trauma—but it doesn't have to define the rest of our lives. Small steps—allowing in one or two people, going to one new place—will set the stage for larger ones. Being conscious of internal responses and self-talk is important, too. Acknowledge your fear, and rather than telling yourself it's irrational, neurotic, and stupid, give yourself a little positive pep talk. “I can do this. I'm a little anxious, but that's okay.”

I find that if I just say “yes” to things instead of “no,” my life is more interesting—less controlled for sure, but more vital. I learn things about myself and others, and have opportunities to observe how other people cope and engage. All of life is a teaching lab, and most of us have a lot to learn. Today is a good day to practice hospitality.

                                                        In the Spirit,
                                                            Jane

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