Tuesday, July 31, 2018

Light Your Fire


Come Alive

Each time I dive deeper into the wilderness I can feel that green fire burning through me. I feel more alive in the grind of my bones, in the thud of the blood, in the twitch of my nerves. Within me and without, I can sense the intense aliveness of life, the sheer urge of life to live.”
Vajragupta (“The Return Journey,” Parabola, Fall, 2018, p. 57)

What, I wonder, makes you feel alive in this way? What causes your eyes to open wide, and your step to quicken? Sometimes we find ourselves plodding in circles like mules in the molasses yoke. We grind through our days as though nothing in the world could possibly create a green fire in us. Speaking for myself, of course. I am a creature of routine. I get up around the same time every day, go to bed, eat my meals, take myself to the gym, walk the dog with the regularity of a Swiss time piece. Truly, it can become a drudgery. What lights my fire is this—writing, the art I attempt, and the friends with whom I am authentic and intimate.

Vajragupta's article in Parabola magazine is about reentry from a wilderness journey—what it feels like to be fully alive one day and back to the grind of routine the next. “How,” he wonders, “to stay alive in the hustle and hassle of the city...How to return home and not slip straight back into that tough old skin?” That's the challenge. Here's a reminder—Jesus went out into the wilderness to rest and pray; Buddha went into the forest to meditate, but neither of them stayed. They came back to minister to the people. They brought back to everyday life the fresh air they had experienced in the wilds. They learned in their solitary ventures into the wilderness how to be open to Spirit's message, how to become clear and purposeful—and then they came back and applied what they had learned.

Thoreau famously wrote in On Walden Pond, “I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life...I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life...” He spent two years in the woods doing just that, but then he came out and wrote a book about his experience which is still a classic today. Doing what we love, that which not only lights our fire but stokes the flames, is essential to living a good life—but only if we then give back in some way to others and to the greater good. In the words of Howard Thurman: “Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.” I hope today finds you wildly alive and well.

                                                               In the Spirit,
                                                                   Jane

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