Thursday, May 31, 2018

Introvert Hell


Social Discourse

Telling an introvert to go to a party is like telling a saint to go to Hell.”
Criss Jami (Killosophy)

One of my goals for this last stretch of life is to try to be more sociable. It's a massive challenge. As an introvert, I don't make small-talk well, and socializing in America is all about small talk. When I did the research for the blog this morning, I found pages of quotes from people who feel as I do about trying to make sense of social encounters. I have been laughing my head off here on my early morning porch and hoping I don't wake the neighbors, all of whom already think me the crazy old eccentric of the neighborhood.

John Adams gave us a suggestion for why small talk is better than intimacy: “Nineteen-twentieths of [mankind is] opaque and unenlightened. Intimacy with most people will make you acquainted with vices and errors and follies enough to make you despise them.” Gee, John, that's a little harsh, don't you think? All the same, best to keep the conversation light.

In The Loved One, Evelyn Waugh wrote: “They are a very decent, generous people out here and they don't expect you to listen. Always remember that, dear boy. It's the secret of social ease in this country. They talk entirely for their own pleasure. Nothing they say is designed to be heard.” Why didn't someone tell me that when I was 12 and heading into puberty? How many awkward moments could I be spared when some stranger at a cocktail party tells me his entire life story? Now I know not to listen, just to smile and nod. Okay, so maybe that's what I do anyway.

Jerome K. Jerome explains why social discourse is such a minefield for some of us: “One of the problems of social life is to know what to say to one another when we meet; every man and woman's desire is to appear sympathetic and clever, and this makes conversation difficult, because taking us all around, we are neither sympathetic nor clever.”(Second Thoughts of An Idle Fellow) Now that I knew. Being honest in our conversation makes us a pariah. So, don't say what you really think, dear boy.

Finally, Oliver North, king of the NRA, gets right to the point—or the barrel as it were: “Be polite, be professional, but have a plan to kill everyone you meet.” (Counterfeit Lies) Alrighty, then! This is so exhausting, maybe I'll just rethink my goal for the last trimester of life. I don't think I could pull it off anyway.

                                               In the Spirit,
                                                   Jane

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