Thursday, February 8, 2018

Rethinking Intimacy


Relationships

I tried to drown my sorrows, but the bastards learned how to swim, and now I am overwhelmed by this decent and good feeling.”
Frida Kahlo

Frida Kahlo once said that in her life there had been two terrible accidents: one was on the trolly when a metal bar sliced through her body, and one was Diego Rivera—and by far, Diego was the worst. Relationships are both our joy and our torment because even good and loving relationships push us to the limit. I read on Facebook yesterday that there is a village somewhere on this planet where women have more than one husband—a reversal of the time-honored tradition of multiple wives. My first thought on reading that was, “Now we're talking!” but after further consideration, it was more like, “Are you kidding me!” How on earth would one woman manage that?

Humans are living longer than ever, and trying to keep our marriages and partnerships fresh and positive over a lifetime is, to say the least, a challenge. What attracted us in the beginning may have changed dramatically, and other less-adorable traits may have surfaced. As with all living things, we do change over time. We have different needs at different stages of life, and our expectations of our partners change. We often say such ridiculous things as “you aren't the man/woman I married,” which is true—thirty years later, unless your partner is dead, they are not the same, and neither are you. Many of us try Frida Kahlo's solution of drowning our sorrows, or numbing the pain in some other manner—drugs, affairs. That too is a dead-end since we are likely to drown ourselves right along with them. The source of our misery is the pushing and pulling—our determination that our partner accommodate to our expectations.

I have no particular insight into this oh-so-human dilemma, but here is what I have arrived at for myself—learn to simply be, and allow your partner to be as well. In fact, let the relationship be whatever it is. Just as there are no perfect people, there are no perfect relationships. We don't have to force our intimate alliances toward some goal, some cultural image that is both idealized and impossible. When we learn to simply be together just as we are, we will come as close to perfect as it gets. When we stop pushing for conformity to an arbitrary set of principles, it's surprising what happens. We run into an almost unrecognizable “decent and good feeling.” Freedom. Transformation. Our sorrows learn how to swim!

                                                                     In the Spirit,
                                                                        Jane

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