Wednesday, January 17, 2018

A Life's Work

Learning Patience

Real patience requires a gentle willingness to let life unfold at its own pace. This willingness, in turn, requires mindfulness...Patience is peace. Learning to be patient is a continual practice that takes years to ripen. Let it unfold, day by day, and be gentle with yourself in the learning.”
Joan Borysenko (Inner Peace for Busy People: 52 Strategies for Transforming Life)

My friend, Rebecca, is a very patient person. As a therapist, she knows better than to push her clients beyond what they are ready to hear or see. She allows people and animals to be who they are without seeing any need to redirect them. I watch her with amazement, and sometimes with frustration. It is not in my nature to be patient. I want to keep the ball rolling, and, better still, I want to determine in which direction it rolls. This is a problem for me, since it is exceedingly rare for the ball to obey my commands. I envy people who are simply patient by nature.

Learning patience is, for some of us, a life's work. Sometimes we can only pretend to be patient, and try to camouflage the roiling inside. Some of us do not have good poker faces, so that whatever we are feeling is instantly communicated to anyone looking at us. Pretend patience requires a lot of energy; in fact, it's exhausting. I compare it to trying to hold an inflated beach ball under water—at the least distraction, it pops up and even bounds away, out of reach.

Acquiring patience requires us to live in the present moment. The whole business of believing that the universe is unfolding as it should, and that with time comes understanding is something one must hold firmly in one's heart. I am not steering the stars—even the ones in my own small, personal galaxy. Over and over, I must lay that onerous task into the hands of One who knows what comes next, and will reveal it to me in due time. Patience takes practice, and being gentle with oneself in the learning is the first step.

                                                          In the Spirit,

                                                             Jane

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