Knowing
Without Knowing Why
“Despite
all consequence, there is an inevitable honoring of what is true, and
at this deep level of inner voice, it is not a summoning of will, but
a following of true knowing.”
Mark Nepo
(The Book of Awakening, p. 217)
I sent a young girl a
quilt last week. The young girl, Kaidance, is a cousin; the
grand-daughter of my first cousin, Anne. I barely know her; met her
only once at the hospice when my Aunt Elaine, was dying. The quilt
was one given to me by my grandmother, Mama, in 1966, when I first
married. It is a butterfly quilt, with each block having an appliqued
butterfly, made of different fabrics; all tied together with lavender
and white. Mama did very fine hand stitching, better than anything I
have ever done.
But here's the
story—beginning a couple of months ago, an inner voice said to me,
“Give Kaidance a quilt.” I argued, as always; “I don't know
Kaidance; how would I know what she even likes?” But the voice was
persistent. Now, I do know Kaid plays banjo, and I know she likes
horses, because Anne posts such information on Facebook. Otherwise, I
know only that she's about ten or eleven years old. As the weeks went
by, the voice inside my head became more insistent, but I knew it
would take at least a year to make a quilt about banjos or horses.
Finally, when I was storing my quilts for the summer in a closet
downstairs, I noticed Mama's butterfly quilt among them. It
practically jumped off the shelf with the instruction, “Send this
quilt to Kaidance!” Later that day, when I was trying to take a
nap, and the voice literally yelled, “Get up and send the quilt!” So I did!
Well, it turns out that
lavender is Kaid's favorite color, her bedroom is painted lavender,
the curtains are lavender, and she has a lavender plant on her
windowsill. Mama would be her great-great-grandmother, who, of
course, Kaid never knew. Call me a mystic, but I think it was Mama's
voice urging me to send the quilt to her.
I am learning to listen
to the inner voices, to pay attention to coincidence, and
synchronicity. They seem to be happening more frequently in my life, and that is
good. I need all the guidance I can get, and this deep level of
“knowing without knowing why” is speaking truth. How about you?
Are you paying attention?
In the Spirit,
Jane
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