“Talking to oneself is a recognized means to learn; in fact, self-speak may be the seed concept behind human consciousness. Private conversation with ourselves might represent the preeminent means to provoke the speaker into thinking, modifying behavior, and perhaps even amending the functionality architecture of the plastic human brain. Writing out our private talks with oneself enables a person to 'see' what they think, a process that invites reflection, ongoing thoughtful discourse with the self, and refinement of our thinking patterns...”
Kilroy J. Oldster (Dead Toad Scrolls)
Do you talk to yourself? Is there a dual conversation going inside your head most of the time? Do you—the conscious listener—ever tune in? Sometimes our self-talk is just a distraction because it is a critical voice telling us what a stupid schmuck we are; but sometimes, it's a guide. Sometimes, it's the brain at work on problem solving. I find that the self-talk (internal jabber) increases when activities in my outer life speed up. When I have too many things going on, and am trying to do too much, my thoughts get scrambled, and my actions follow.
Perhaps you've seen this pattern in yourself: You think a thought, and that thought tells you to go and get something you left in the bedroom (or the office, etc), so you walk to the bedroom, but when you get there, you've forgotten what you came to get. Your inner voice is asking, “Now, what did I come in here for?” That happens because between one end of the house and the other, you've entertained five other random thoughts, and in that process, the first thought dropped into the black hole of obscurity in your brain. At least, that's my pattern. Often, I have to go back to whatever I was doing in the first place, and jog my memory of what I needed.
It's a common symptom, and while it may get worse with age, age is not the cause of it. Having too many balls in the air is. I find that making a list, and checking it off, is helpful. Sometimes, when one's brain is wrangling in a two- or three-way internal dialogue, it is also helpful to write down pros and cons, or simply, to write what is being spoken internally, so that it becomes external. Writing activates two sensory modes, visual and kinesthetic, and two inputs are better than one when it comes to sorting and learning. It also helps because you have to stop the frenzied behavior, and sit down to write. We all get into warp-2 hyperspace at times.
In terms of serenity, it is a good idea to monitor self-talk, and stop the destructive voice that criticizes. Affirmation helps. Using affirmative words to purposely input a positive message will sometimes shut down that “stupid schmuck” nonsense. Here is, according to the Science of Mind Magazine (March, 2017), who you really are: “The truth about you is that you are a center of God-consciousness. You are part of the wholeness of Infinite Life. You are a spark of the Divine, a radiance of Universal Intelligence, an emanation of the One Mind. You are an incarnation of Spirit...” Now, don't you feel better already?
In the Spirit,