Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Are you living...

Distracted

I want to feel my life while I'm in it.” Meryl Streep

I don't know about you, but sometimes I operate on auto-pilot. Sometimes, my life is lived in retrospect. I realize the significance of things only after the fact. I don't know whether that is the nature of an introvert, or simply the result of distraction. If my head is in one place, and my body in another, where exactly am I? I have to bring conscious awareness to being present in this moment or I won't have this moment. And the moments add up to days, and lifetimes.

It takes practice to feel your life while you're living it. There are so many competing thoughts and experiences, and nowadays, our technology is an ever present source of interruption. There is a very good possibility that our cell phones are just another “mental” function that multiplies and amplifies distractedness. Sunday, during worship, I watched one singer in the choir text the entire time between songs, and yesterday, while talking with a friend, his new iPhone was mentioned at least 7 times in less than an hour.

I know it sounds lame-brained to be so out of step, but I truly think we should set aside time for being in our lives while we're living them. Right this moment, the sun shines too brightly in my eyes; it reveals all the dust on my computer screen. The oak leaves closest to me are brown around the edges, and Liza patrols the porch borders, ever vigilant for the black cat. Birds sing, an occasional car swishes by on the street, and dogs bark in the distance. Practicing mindfulness is not exciting, but it pulls my consciousness into this moment. I inhabit my life, dust and all.

I don't want to get to the end of my life and wonder what I did with all the time God gave me. I want to be here now, while I actually am here now. Today, let's practice presence.

                                                     In the Spirit,
                                                           Jane





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