Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Allowing the soul to stand ajar.

Open Heart

The soul should always stand ajar.” Emily Dickinson

I was trying to describe to my friend, Harry, how a person we both know feels to me. There's a warm, welcoming manner, but when you try to approach, there's a solid wall around it. You can bask in the warmth from a distance, but you cannot get any closer. I have known other people who have this same persona—on the surface, they seem friendly and personal, but there is a firm invisible boundary that cannot be broached. There's nothing wrong with having boundaries, believe me, but boundaries don't typically contradict the personality. One may be warm and open, and still have a boundary around personal information and excessive exposure. That's healthy. The problem with contradictory boundaries is that they repel everyone—even people we might want to be close with.

Some of us may have had bad experiences with having a too-open heart. We may have been burned, and so, closed that portal of entry. That's understandable for a time—to heal, to regain one's self-esteem. But permanently closing one's heart to all comers is a sad and dangerous business. Trust is difficult to restore, but it can be done. We might begin by choosing one person with whom to “stand ajar.” We might self-disclose only in ways that feel safe, and open our hearts by degrees. Of course, the person who walks through life with an open heart in spite of the woes it causes, is a gift to the world.

Wearing a closed soul prevents us from learning important lessons that we are here in the Earth School to learn. We must let the door to our hearts stand ajar if we are to accomplish our soul's task.
In the Spirit,

Jane

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