Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Unlearning the hard lessons.

Reward and Punishment

...the reward for breathing is not applause but air, and the reward for climbing is not promotion but new sight, and the reward for kindness is not being seen as kind, but the electricity of giving that keeps us alive.”
                                Mark Nepo (The Book of Awakening)

My girl-cousin, Sandy, has a little dog—a Yorkie named Bogart. She was in the habit of letting him out the back door to do his business, and giving him a treat as soon as he came back in. Being a smart little fellow, he learned to anticipate the treat and stopped going into the back yard when she let him out. Instead, he stood on the steps and waited for the door to open again so he could claim his treat. It became an issue between them—with her demanding he go into the yard and do his business, and he, waiting in earnest on the steps. The process of unlearning that behavior was painful for both of them.

As children, we learn quickly that when we do what Mommie wants, we are rewarded, and when we break the rules, we are punished. It's quite a shock then when, as adults, we do something good, or work extra hard, and are not rewarded. Even more of a slap-in-the-face to be passed over for the reward and watch someone else receive what should be ours. We feel offended and hurt.

For most of us, maturity takes a lifetime. But when we make progress in that direction, the desire for reward-for-effort begins to diminish. We find that the effort itself is the reward. We work because we love working, we meditate because we love peacefulness and clarity; we pray to feel the expansive oneness. Anyone who has ever served dinner at a shelter for people who are homeless understands that when we open our hearts to others, it is we who are blessed. When we give without expectation of receiving, the giving itself is the reward. Kindness connects us with the source of love, the only source there is for a life worth living.

                                               In the spirit,

                                                  Jane

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