Thursday, November 29, 2012

Do you keep a journal?


Journaling

What needs to be counted on to have a voice? Courage. Anger. Love. Something to say; someone to speak to; someone to listen. I have talked to myself for years in the privacy of my journals. The only things I've done religiously are keep a journal and use birth control.”
                     Terry Tempest Williams (When Women Were Birds)

There is a difference between a diary and a journal. The diary, which every little girl gets in elementary school, is supposed to be a daily record, while a journal is a free-flowing collection of thoughts and happenings. For years I kept a journal—beginning in my early twenties and continuing until recently, when my writing evolved into other forms. I wrote about what was going on in my life, my plans, my hopes and, quite literally, my dreams, nocturnal and otherwise. Sometimes I wrote straight down the page as usual, sometimes I turned the book sideways, or wrote on the diagonal or in a circle. I drew pictures and designs, wrote poems, made lists, jotted short story lines, and snippets of conversation. I'm happy that I kept journals all those years because now I can go back and check in with my twenty-year-old self and follow her progress all through the years. Let me tell you, she was a mess for many of those years.

Keeping a journal is an excellent way of working through difficult decisions. Making lists of pros and cons and allowing the different parts of the self to dialog with one another usually brings clarity. Also, going through a process of assessment keeps you from making spur-of-the-moment, and often faulty, choices. And further, journaling forces you to spend some time inside yourself, shining a light around in there, looking for bug-a-boos that might come back to haunt you, as well as good stuff to inspire.

A proper journal should have blank, unlined pages. Lined pages box you in and discourage creativity. Some people like journals that are large enough to draw in, and some like them small enough to fit inside one's purse or backpack. Journals are hand written, coordinating the hands and eyes with the creativity centers of the brain. Besides, we are going to forget how to write if all we ever use is a keyboard, and who wants their innermost thoughts recorded on a hard-drive?

Going to a bookstore to buy a journal is a great pleasure. Choose one that speaks to you, that feels good in your hands, that gives you a little tingle of excitement when you open it. After all, your relationship to your journal is both personal and intimate, so pick one that pleases you. Don't feel you have to write every day, but make writing a priority or you won't do it. Best of all, enjoy this journey of discovery. Your inner-reaches are every bit as interesting as your outer surroundings.

                                              In the spirit,
                                                 Jane

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